潘朵拉之月 Pandora's Moon

You see nothing but your grieves. 
I want to hug them out. I really wanted to. 
But it gives me heartache every time. Harder and harder. 
And even when you hurt me, the way you apologized was; 'I'm sorry, I wasn't in great mood...blah'
Excuse me? you weren't in great mood and you can do that to me? Are you fucking serious. 

I start to feel like ... soon or later I cant do this anymore...
I tried to make an effort, I tried to make you understand. 
I spent time on reflecting and organizing thoughts, manage myself to be emotionally mature enough to handle the feelings of both of us. 
But honestly this time I feel like I cant do it anymore. 
I cant let you slab me like she she did. I cant let you push me away like she did. 
All my life I have been trying to avoid feelings like this. I cant, I really cant. 
If you cant take care of your own emotions, its fine, coz Im not doing any better either.
But if you use that, and hurt me for it. 
I wont let you, No one, no one on earth can put me through all those shittiest feelings ever again. 
Im talking about rejected, unwanted, abandoned... 
Just say it if you don't want me. Im done thinking for you.