潘朵拉之月 Pandora's Moon

so. i've runined everything again,
for who i dun wanna be, for who i wanna be.
they dun make it.
plans. jz dun work.

i felt like shit. I felt like im a piece of shit.
the least thing that I wanna happen. happens. n u cant avoid it. fk
they hate me. 
cant stop thinking they hate me. 
im so fking annoying. I hate to bother ppl, yet I annoyed them.
disgusting. as always.
irritating me. shit. how can I possibly compensate tht.
y is it so difficult to look good. 
y is it so difficult to act mature.
y is it so difficult to get along with ppl.
n y, I always hv to make ppl hate me.