潘朵拉之月 Pandora's Moon

i feel worthless.
i still feel worthless.
im trying so hard to make myself look lovely
but im still disgusting.
no matter wt i do im still being disgusting.

im ambitious, i wanted to accomplish smth i not capable of .
i wish i can be good enough for that.
i wish i can make myself proud.
but i kn i cant. im so afraid that i cant.
the last thing i want is to fail myself.

i have an interview tmr.
i applied days ago,
i was glad that they give me a chance but then im now holding back.
im terrified. wt if i cant do it. wt if im not capable for it.. again.

there r times tht i dun even kn wt i want.
.
afterall i jz need to handle my coursework now.
how can i possibly even screwed that up.
howcan i not even get my only job done.

im a fking balloon. 
fking empty in the inside
always fall in the end.